Stay or Leave

Hi, right now , right here, at this moment , I feel so confuse about my choice, I always priorities others than myself. But when I come this question, I asked myself "what if I get to know I have only 1 left day to live in this world? what is the thing that I've done and feel proud about myself? what is the thing that makes me regret? Do I feel happy and satisfy with my choice, my decision ,my life generally?"
Honestly, I'm not shocked at all when answers appeared in my mind, but what's my next move I asked myself. I'm afraid of changes. Fear & uncertainty hold me back from what I want to do. I'm afraid if I left this place, my friend will be having trouble, I know my role, I 've helped and done my part and even outside my job scope,even though I didn't get anything in return, I just want to help my colleagues, my friends ...what I know is, I do my best, contribute what I can, learn as much as I could, and the rest will come to me (benefit) 'someone told me this' ...(1/6/17) Jo.
to be continue... as maybe 1 day when I see back what I wrote today , I might have a different perception about my thought :)

2014 review

This month is stepping to the end of the year, December of 2014. After read all the posts, some makes me feel funny and yet stupid, some still touching the most hurt part of my heart. But as i said, now is already 2014, i have stopped writing blog since 2011. Within this few years, there are good and bad of course, we have grown up physically and mentally wise, we learnt alot after we stepped into this society,and many things we know are not within our authority. The day some of us might prioritise our gf/bf or friends 1st, tell parents that we r busy, but now we definitely choose to back home to gather with our family member once we have chance and we take turn to accompany our bf/gf when both of us bek home. maybe everyone has already passed their rebellious life as now they became good girl and good boy. It is a big change for me in my job wise as i left working as a physio and now my job is even more meaningful and helpful. I can travel alot and see my family more often. And .... Many more in my heart, that will be better keep to myself and slowly digest it.

Love is still remain...

I clearly know that we no longer together, but my Feeling towards you, the feeling of having you with me, the Love...still remain...This would be the Hardest part...
Even thou I told you that I'm still thinking of you, but the only replied that I've got was ' It's just time...In time, u wont feel in that way anymore'...
I'm still looking for a way turning back....

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为什么人总是不会知足？幼稚园都学过了，贪心的小黄狗，看见了水里自己的倒影，嘴里还啃着另一根骨头，于是，为了要抢到‘水里’的那根骨头，而跌入河里。。。
应该分清楚河汉界，不要再拖泥带水了。。。可是，心里总有好多好多的不舍得。。。那些开心的回忆一直拉着大家的距离，不肯剪断。。。
在残忍，也得牺牲。。。事实就是那么的残酷。。。