Is he worth me to wait for him?

Stop challenging with me, I lose most of my patience on you!! Everything i can change because of him,according to what he wants ,but he never care about my feeling... Im so upset with his attitude... Why must Frens come 1st instead of me? why ask me go back hometown, in fact i came here so far juz for YOU! u wan spend more time v ur frens, need personal space, everything i gave u...but end up, u nvr appreciate !!!
everything u promise me,u nvr make it...whenever u met ur frens,u forget about me... even a call or msg ,u nvr send even one ...n I'm da 1 who waiting like a donkey... How many hours? How many days? I tot i can wait forever, but until now oni i realise, U r not the right person n u dont deserve to let me wait for u!!

Lonely girl~

Why i have nothing happy about to post up on my blog? why must everytime is the same problem?
why must i so sad n disappointed for him?
just because of he doesn't care about me? whatever i done for him,he never care about it...
In facebook, he always leave comment on his friends' and housemates' page..i can bet v him,he never go see my profile page to have the curiosity to know what im doing? how i feel today and what problem i've got for this past few months until that nite i was beg'ing him to leave some comments on my wall to make me happy...I've to beg for him man~ what is my status in his heart? I sick,i din take meal,he wont care oso...that day,he sit in front of laptop watching drama for whole day long,n i've to suffer inside the room...promise me wan to bring me to see doctor in the afternoon,but he was watching drama and shout at me ask me go eat something n go sleep while he is sitting there watching movie...
i really dont understad why he can treat me until so "tidak apa"? anyone can tell me? Is he my bf or my normal friend? the most important thing is he will give alot of reasons and excuses , convince me that he is not purposely doing like this...
but let me ask u ppl a question, if u have got interested in someone,will u go n view his/her page? to see any changes any wall that he/she post up? honestly will u?
why i got this kind of BF? My heart very painful and i feel very helpless...

当然也有开心的时候。。。

缆车

棉花糖

当然，不是每个时候都吵架。。。 一想起开心的事，就会开心。。。这也是我自己安慰自己的方法。

开心也要过一天，难过也要过一天，那为什么自己那么笨，而选择消极的来惩罚自己呢？

他想要什么，只要不过分，我觉得我应该给他。。。他快乐我不一定快乐，不过至少他的自由不受到约束，我也不想要重蹈复测，让同样的悲剧再次重演。。。但如果我觉得他真的不是我想要的或是不能再让我开心，至少我会在被他伤害之前离开他。。。这可能是阴影所造成的。。。

ps: 我真的很希望有一天他会看到这些我所记载下来的点滴，希望他知道我想要的是什么。。。不难，只是基本的需求而以。。。犹如生物依靠空气生存的道理一样，不能缺。。。

但是，我知道他却像空气一样，不需要任何东西也能存在载着地球。。。

奢望他给我更多。。。更多他的注意，有错吗？还是只有电脑游戏可以活在你的世界？我输了吗？

经过这一个星期，我才发现，什么东西是我想要的可是却得不到。。。永远永远都得不到。。。可能是我要求太多，还是我想得太多了。。。

“人比人” 永远都比不完。。。 就像我班上的一位同学告诉我说 ：“你那么喜欢和以前比较，那为什么还接受他和他在一起？”

我只是希望他多关心我，记得我说的话，最重要的是记得我们俩一起相处的时间。。。

你是否能够告诉我为什么你那么健忘吗？是属于我们俩的时间和一起过什么，你统统都忘得一干二净。。。 当我知道你从不记得我们所做的每一件事时，我的心。。。纠着，好疼，好失望。。。 我们还是情侣没吗？

你是喜欢我吗？还是你只是喜欢爱情？喜欢出去时有一个女生在你声旁，手让你牵着，腰让你搂着，再向朋友炫耀说你也有女朋友，你只是喜欢“拍拖”这种感觉吗？

一个星期，呆在家里，我知道你很闷，你玩DOTA 和足球电脑游戏我都没哼半声反而在旁边陪着你，看着你玩。。。而且还在你身后独自玩了起来。。。直到昨晚在我回家前，才告诉你我的感受。。。

我不住址你玩是因为这是每个男生都会做的事，男生都爱玩电脑游戏，我给你空间，我更希望给了你私人空间后，你会多陪陪我，和我一起做我想做的事。。。

好希望你能够看到我在这里所发泄的心情，可是我知道你懒惰游览这些网站。。。

如果我有许愿盒可以让我的愿望实现的话，我想许一个愿望 ：但愿我们回到四月五号前，当我们还是很好很好的朋友，你还是那个很关心我的- 亲爱的~